Privat

Thats the way I feel. I feel like my whole life is just one big misstake after another.... I want to go home, and I know I have no home.. But Sweden is still for some reason my base, saying that if my mum was still in Spain I would want to go there. And its not about being with my mum I just feel I have no way out. No where to go, no one to speak to as I am embarresed about my situation. No one can help but myslef but I honestly dont know where to start.

I could take my money and get a one way flight home with the boys. But what would I do with three dogs at home in Sweden? I dont have a place to live and no income. No education and no skills. I cant even spell or talk Swedish very well!

I have had it with people telling me what to do. And being rude. I am ready to snap and line every single one of you up and tell you straight to your face what I think.

Anne. you get on my effing tits! Seriously! Who do you think you are? Honeslty! What gives you the right ? I know you are the age of my mum but you have no right to behave the way you do. I know I should respect my elders but you make it very hard to!

Kirsty. STOP FUCKING around with my husband!

Honestly. It makes me never want to go out here again. I must be going crazy or something or am I just hearing and seeing things? I hate this village at the same time as I love it. But I hate the fact of not having anyone to turn to. And I am worried I am going down the dark tunnel again... Cant face it again...



So what do I do?

I wish I had done things differently...

So remember dont judge a book by its cover.....