Stages!
I am going to have to do it in stages...
So many things to tell!
Lets start with the dress..... Hmm.. How do I start... I had bought a gorgeous dress and it fitted great, the next size up fell of so it was fab and looked so cute... Got there and find I am struggling to breath after having food and drink... I start to loose sensation in my fingers and felt dizzy.... It was fine standing up but I coulndt do that al night with mu bad knee...
So... I had to be a primadonna and go home and get changed... People throughout the night came up and asked if I got changed with ever course, so so much for me thinking people wouldnt notice...
I ordered a taxi but the lovely David who also lent us his house in Dubai gave me a lift home. I was speedy and back in 10 minutes... I felt so much better after getting chnaged but also very pissed of as it was a great dress I had big hopes for!
We got home at about half three after not being able to get a taxi....
We sat in the lounge in the house with Duffy and some others and they where so drunk... They were on the floor wrestling and at one point D sat on my knee, head and bag all at about the same time....
Ronan did some great performances but the best must have been when most people had gone home and he got his guy to play the guitar outside and he just sang to us... Maybe about 15 of us. With the guitar case open for people to raise even more for charity... People where throwing £100 notes in!! It was amazing eventhough I am not a huge boyzone fan... K B is though so it must have been like heaven for her!
But it still comes down to the same thing..... Who the heck do some of these people think they are? They still eat, fart and shit like the rest of us!!! But behaves like anything is ok! One guy in perticular got on emy nerves on both nights. Had it not been for Stu working there I would have told him. I did kick him a little bit as he rammed into me and gave him a good long like if looks could kill look as he would not move out of my way to let me thruogh a door like anyone with some manners would!
They had put on a performance by the Red Hit Chilli PIPERS, they where fab... If you ever get a chance to see them do! The rocked!! It was amazing..... Would have loved to recorded all of it!
Today is a special day eventhough we celebrated some what last night!
Today is a grey bleak day... Boys are tired and not moving and I am sat here wondering how to get some energy together.... Working today!
Will contune with more later!
So many things to tell!
Lets start with the dress..... Hmm.. How do I start... I had bought a gorgeous dress and it fitted great, the next size up fell of so it was fab and looked so cute... Got there and find I am struggling to breath after having food and drink... I start to loose sensation in my fingers and felt dizzy.... It was fine standing up but I coulndt do that al night with mu bad knee...
So... I had to be a primadonna and go home and get changed... People throughout the night came up and asked if I got changed with ever course, so so much for me thinking people wouldnt notice...
I ordered a taxi but the lovely David who also lent us his house in Dubai gave me a lift home. I was speedy and back in 10 minutes... I felt so much better after getting chnaged but also very pissed of as it was a great dress I had big hopes for!
We got home at about half three after not being able to get a taxi....
We sat in the lounge in the house with Duffy and some others and they where so drunk... They were on the floor wrestling and at one point D sat on my knee, head and bag all at about the same time....
Ronan did some great performances but the best must have been when most people had gone home and he got his guy to play the guitar outside and he just sang to us... Maybe about 15 of us. With the guitar case open for people to raise even more for charity... People where throwing £100 notes in!! It was amazing eventhough I am not a huge boyzone fan... K B is though so it must have been like heaven for her!
But it still comes down to the same thing..... Who the heck do some of these people think they are? They still eat, fart and shit like the rest of us!!! But behaves like anything is ok! One guy in perticular got on emy nerves on both nights. Had it not been for Stu working there I would have told him. I did kick him a little bit as he rammed into me and gave him a good long like if looks could kill look as he would not move out of my way to let me thruogh a door like anyone with some manners would!
They had put on a performance by the Red Hit Chilli PIPERS, they where fab... If you ever get a chance to see them do! The rocked!! It was amazing..... Would have loved to recorded all of it!
Today is a special day eventhough we celebrated some what last night!
Today is a grey bleak day... Boys are tired and not moving and I am sat here wondering how to get some energy together.... Working today!
Will contune with more later!
Who do you think you are!?
Right, so I havent meet every man woman, black, white, rich, poor or famous person!
BUT! I am going to jump to a conclusion! A have new found respect for STu coz after one night with rich celebreties I had had enough! I have NEVER meet people so far up their own arses where you take no intrest in what is going on around you!
Not quite rude (apart from one guy) just totally in another world!
So I guess you can sum up my night... Yep thank God some of the people I know from the O C where there or I would have got a cab home let me tell you!
And Stu how the heck do you cope? Ass licking and priming their ego... OH NO!
Right and the thing is.. I harldy even know who these guys are... Mush to their dismay!
So here it goes... And as for you who advertise healthy food, maybe you shold try eating it love coz you look A BIT bloated!
And as for you who said dont you recognise me? EH a fat bald guy? NOPE sorry, the people I hang with all have hair!
Oh and as for the comedian who gave a finger to the band! CLASSY!
So my new dress better be worth your company tonight or its going back and I am going home! Hrmph!
Now I am going to wash my fake tan off and go and have some fresh air!
My knee is still sore and I am going to see Terry at 12 to see if he can sort it! My feet where twitching last night whilst the band was playing!
Over and out, SHOUT!
Just had breakfast containing Diet Coke & Cashew Nuts! YUM!
No way out!
Thats the way I feel. I feel like my whole life is just one big misstake after another.... I want to go home, and I know I have no home.. But Sweden is still for some reason my base, saying that if my mum was still in Spain I would want to go there. And its not about being with my mum I just feel I have no way out. No where to go, no one to speak to as I am embarresed about my situation. No one can help but myslef but I honestly dont know where to start.
I could take my money and get a one way flight home with the boys. But what would I do with three dogs at home in Sweden? I dont have a place to live and no income. No education and no skills. I cant even spell or talk Swedish very well!
I have had it with people telling me what to do. And being rude. I am ready to snap and line every single one of you up and tell you straight to your face what I think.
Anne. you get on my effing tits! Seriously! Who do you think you are? Honeslty! What gives you the right ? I know you are the age of my mum but you have no right to behave the way you do. I know I should respect my elders but you make it very hard to!
Kirsty. STOP FUCKING around with my husband!
Honestly. It makes me never want to go out here again. I must be going crazy or something or am I just hearing and seeing things? I hate this village at the same time as I love it. But I hate the fact of not having anyone to turn to. And I am worried I am going down the dark tunnel again... Cant face it again...
So what do I do?
I wish I had done things differently...
So remember dont judge a book by its cover.....
I could take my money and get a one way flight home with the boys. But what would I do with three dogs at home in Sweden? I dont have a place to live and no income. No education and no skills. I cant even spell or talk Swedish very well!
I have had it with people telling me what to do. And being rude. I am ready to snap and line every single one of you up and tell you straight to your face what I think.
Anne. you get on my effing tits! Seriously! Who do you think you are? Honeslty! What gives you the right ? I know you are the age of my mum but you have no right to behave the way you do. I know I should respect my elders but you make it very hard to!
Kirsty. STOP FUCKING around with my husband!
Honestly. It makes me never want to go out here again. I must be going crazy or something or am I just hearing and seeing things? I hate this village at the same time as I love it. But I hate the fact of not having anyone to turn to. And I am worried I am going down the dark tunnel again... Cant face it again...
So what do I do?
I wish I had done things differently...
So remember dont judge a book by its cover.....
Flashback...
Yes today had been a day of flashback and memories... God and bad!
Just been sat here speaking about old stuff that has been and gone, the people we have lost along the way. So many that still deserve to be on this earth....
And the people we know longer know here they are...
Today is one of those down days.. Not down and bad but when I just sit and listen to music and wonder. People ask questions that make me question the things i do and dont do....
Where would I be? I know we all ask that at times but it has been ages since I was in this place.. Where I just want to turn the lights of be on my own and listen to music and be.... It's hard sometimes.....
It's not been easy... And I guess I should be glad to be where I am today but still... Would it be very different if I hadn't done all those things....?
Just take a deep breath and pray I will be ok for tomorrow... I feel bad for even feeling it... But I belive you should be allowed to feel as well....
I just want to sit here with my ipod and listen with no questions...
And the things people think. Its hard to live up to the people or even defend they way you are or what you do.....
I ask for peace... In my heart and in my head......
And peace for those we have lost... All of you I think of you.... RIP everyone!
Just been sat here speaking about old stuff that has been and gone, the people we have lost along the way. So many that still deserve to be on this earth....
And the people we know longer know here they are...
Today is one of those down days.. Not down and bad but when I just sit and listen to music and wonder. People ask questions that make me question the things i do and dont do....
Where would I be? I know we all ask that at times but it has been ages since I was in this place.. Where I just want to turn the lights of be on my own and listen to music and be.... It's hard sometimes.....
It's not been easy... And I guess I should be glad to be where I am today but still... Would it be very different if I hadn't done all those things....?
Just take a deep breath and pray I will be ok for tomorrow... I feel bad for even feeling it... But I belive you should be allowed to feel as well....
I just want to sit here with my ipod and listen with no questions...
And the things people think. Its hard to live up to the people or even defend they way you are or what you do.....
I ask for peace... In my heart and in my head......
And peace for those we have lost... All of you I think of you.... RIP everyone!
Why?
Do you interupt my life?
Always on time and just always? Without fail...
Normally I don't care but what happend today? All of a sudden all emotional....
What do I do? Sit on my hands... Not going to get involved like that again... As hard as it is... I don't think there will ever be an end to this... Well.. I don't know.. Maybe there will be.... Actually I deffo think there will be an end, not too soon but it will happen.... And then what? What has it all been "good" for? It gives nothing for no one!
Im not upset anymore.... Just wondering... WHY!!!
It's been so long.... So what do you want?
Once burned, twice shy.......
Well it's more a million times burned... And still know no better..
Get a grip girl!
Always on time and just always? Without fail...
Normally I don't care but what happend today? All of a sudden all emotional....
What do I do? Sit on my hands... Not going to get involved like that again... As hard as it is... I don't think there will ever be an end to this... Well.. I don't know.. Maybe there will be.... Actually I deffo think there will be an end, not too soon but it will happen.... And then what? What has it all been "good" for? It gives nothing for no one!
Im not upset anymore.... Just wondering... WHY!!!
It's been so long.... So what do you want?
Once burned, twice shy.......
Well it's more a million times burned... And still know no better..
Get a grip girl!
Private II
Oh jag ar sa javla trott pa vissa mannsikor! Eller en viss manniska. Avundsjuka antar jag men hon gar pa sa personligt att jag borjar bli redigt trott pa det hela!! Det ar nu ca 5 gangen hon pikar och beter sej som en barn rumpa. For nagon som ar 32 ar gammal sa borde man bara tycka synd om henne.
Att kanna sej sa underlagsen att man gar pa hur jag behandlar mina hundar for att vinna ett "krig" jag aldrig velat vara inblandad i. Jag har aldrig kannt att hon har varit nagot hot mot mej eller det jag gor med tydligen sa kanner hon det valdigt starkt da hon gar runt o ljuger om mej bland annat. Och nu nar jag vet vilka fula trick hon kor med sa undrar man vad hon sager bakom min rygg och om folk tror pa henne.
Manga har kommit fram och sagt det hon sager om mej och jag lovar, en konkret sak till och jag gor en polisanmalan! Jag finner mej inte i att man beter sej sahar!
Maste ju ocksa saga hur glad jag ar for alla som sett igenom hennes ruttna attityd och tacka alla som forsatter med mej, bade privat och med Posh Pooches.
Man gar inte pa mej privat och mina hundar o papekar vilken dalig agare jag ar utan konsekvenser!
Det handlar inte om at vara elak och visst kan kan jag forsoka lata det rinna av mej men det borjar ga lite for langt!
Att kanna sej sa underlagsen att man gar pa hur jag behandlar mina hundar for att vinna ett "krig" jag aldrig velat vara inblandad i. Jag har aldrig kannt att hon har varit nagot hot mot mej eller det jag gor med tydligen sa kanner hon det valdigt starkt da hon gar runt o ljuger om mej bland annat. Och nu nar jag vet vilka fula trick hon kor med sa undrar man vad hon sager bakom min rygg och om folk tror pa henne.
Manga har kommit fram och sagt det hon sager om mej och jag lovar, en konkret sak till och jag gor en polisanmalan! Jag finner mej inte i att man beter sej sahar!
Maste ju ocksa saga hur glad jag ar for alla som sett igenom hennes ruttna attityd och tacka alla som forsatter med mej, bade privat och med Posh Pooches.
Man gar inte pa mej privat och mina hundar o papekar vilken dalig agare jag ar utan konsekvenser!
Det handlar inte om at vara elak och visst kan kan jag forsoka lata det rinna av mej men det borjar ga lite for langt!
